From The Very First Moment

Heavenly Father works in very mysterious ways. It's actually very fascinating to me how easily receptive we are the his promptings through the Holy Spirit at one moment then the next we are pulling our hair out because we feel like he is no longer communicating to us and we become frustrated like no other. But I've learned the more difficult way, that He never forgets about us and that's a promise that I can make you myself.
The first time I ever felt like Heavenly Father was listening to me and answering my questions and needs was when I was given my very first ever Book of Mormon. From the very first moment the Book of Mormon was placed in my hands I knew that it was true. It was like God was slapping me in the face with what I had been looking for for so long and he knew that I knew this was it.

It happened during my first ever meeting with my missionaries Elder Saager and Elder Malietoa, I had no clue that the answer to my prayer just a week before hand would have been answered so quickly. But it happened for a reason and I am thankful every day that it did. While meeting with the Elders in Savannah's house, I could feel the spirit so strongly and at that time I didn't even know that it was the Spirit. I had that feeling several times before that day but I knew it was good and with time I realized what it was. Since Elder Saager was so new, Elder Malietoa was guiding him by telling him what to do and reminding him what to say to me, and eventually they both told me that they didn't give out books very frequently since they were afraid that people would just throw them away and not read them. But they could feel that I was ready and that I wanted/needed that book so they followed that prompting from Heavenly Father and gave it to me.

So after that first meeting I took on the challenge that they presented me by prayerfully reading the book and if I really wanted to know if it were true, then I should ask Him and he would give me an answer. I already knew that it was true, I could tell just by the Spirit that filled the room the moment it was placed in my hands but I wanted to make sure. I began reading early in the morning on Tuesday the day after our first meeting. I didn't even make it through the introduction before I felt the fullness of my answer. But for some reason I kept asking, I remember asking over and over and begging for Him to let me know with all my heart and all my soul that this was true. I wanted to know that this was where my heart belonged and with a loving response and loving vibe I heard these words in my mind softly being whispered "Why are you still asking if this is true? You already know."

From that point on I knew that things were going to be different and even though I had never been able to deal with things changing and being different I was willing to take this on like my life depended on it. My life still does depend on the Book of Mormon and my love and testimony continues to grow every single day. This is my life and I love it.